As far as I could remember, I've never really had a dream. There wasn't really anything I wanted to aspire to or to become but as I think about it, maybe I've always had one but just didn't realize it. I don't see this as a "dream" per say but it is something I'm going to work hard at achieving.

Some times thing look better on paper.

I wouldn't say it was a dream I just know it was something that has to be done. I'm disappointed that it's not going to go anywhere. Everyone says it's a great idea but no one is actually doing anything to help get it off the ground.  I will admit that I made it a big 'thing' in my head. Thinking people will think it's the best idea and just want to jump right into it. I know I'm not an important person but I want to make a difference. I want to matter to someone. But it looks like that wont happen.

I don't like who I am becoming here. I don't like snapping at people all the time. I don't like the tention and the knots I can can feel all built up.